I woke up and felt instantly horrible. I had extremely life like dreams, so when I woke up I felt like I was still dreaming and it was really disorientating. So at work I wasn’t in the best mood and the day just dragged on. I was really looking forward to spending some time with my friends at my friends Tupperware party and it was good, but when I got home from work I just felt so shit. I just wanted to curl in a ball and cry so I wasn’t the best company there. When we got home I knew that I had to do something because if I was to stay home I would have been in my room making my mood worse. So I got a group of friends and went down to the beach. It was really nice.. I always find the beach really relaxing. I just forgot about everything I was worrying about and just took in the beautiful surroundings. I went for a swim with a friend and then we all spent most of the night laughing, talking and trying to build a fire. It was lovely :) I’m now sitting in my bed after eating McDonald feeling like a fatty thinking about going on a diet.
I’m looking forward to tomorrow though :) getting up when I want, washing my car and other various little jobs. And then seeing a group of girl from work for coffee and hopefully some other people too :)

parents want me to stay home and do homework

i want to go down to the beach and hike around the dunes. i want to get more bruises and scratches and explore places that i haven’t before. i want to climb in inappropraite shoes and clothes. sgjsgrgjkdgn i need an exploring buddy.